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Why? You didn't need to...

Wed Jun 10, 2009, 3:24 AM
I wonder if people think it's okay to decide my fate for me...
I wonder if people think it's okay that fate is already decided...
I wonder if people think it's okay that i don't even get a choice...
I'm lying.
I don't really wonder about any of that.

Honestly. I have already found the answer.

People make things in their head go round; it's called thought.

Thought can make people weird, crazy, blah, blah, etc. You know. Our thoughts are our personality, right?

I don't understand other peoples' thought now...
People. Why?
Why would you question certain things?

It's like, the meaning of life, why question that? You have plenty of better things to do than waste your time on something you will never truly have an answer for...

But then... Other people, they will tell me.

People will actually tell me what i am going to do with my life and how i will end...


Now,i'm sorry to you, if you're reading this, but it hurt; it hurt me that you would say that to me...

You say to me that we will both die of scuicide yes?

No.
Wrong.
Not going to happen.

I know that i have done some things... It pains me to remember... But, you know what.

I won't kill myself.

Then saying that "it's only a matter of time"

What is that supposed to mean!?

I know you are a really close friend of mine, and you sometimes don't know what to say, but saying that other people will kill themselves is not a subject to touch or add to.

I would rather people tell me that i am not going to die please. Sorry.

- I really can't handle that right now.

sorry for my rant.

- end. <3

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Rachael Clare; 14; South Australia.

In my life i have had good, and bad things happen. I have had many different interests in which you all found weird, but i liked anyway, but now, i think i am discovering myself, finally!

I am the type of person who likes things that are suttle, but beautiful, bold but beautiful. I can find beauty in most things, and generally, it's amazingly fascinating. I love to draw, and take pictures. I love to capture moments, and draw my thoughts. - My mind is complex however, and it means a very interesting turn out of a picture.

I love my own style, even though i am just making it... I like white nail polish and ear cuffs. <3 I like outfits that you don't see people wear very often. I like indivuality in the crazy fashion world.

I don't like make-up, unless used in the form of art, but, i won't judge you if you wear it unless you wear too much. I might get a little worried as to why. Though, i don't think it makes a majority look good. If you can apply it and use it properly then yes, it's okay. But most people wear too much because it's 'in'? Maybe one day people will get over this stuff... All people are doing is wearing a mask. And a mask is only there until you take it off. You can't hide behind them.

I like bright colours! And generally, anything sparkly will grab my attention. I like how the light can reflect off of a simple object to make it look that much more amazing. - Anything with a sparkle is brilliant. That's why eyes are so amazing.

Eyes have to be the most complex thing in the world. They are your feelings escaping through a glassy window of brilliant colours and mystery... You can tell when someone is sad, happy, or even angry. You just have to read them right. And through the eyes, you can tell when the lips are lying.

I think the most complicated thing about life is that when you're a teenager, everything is 100x harder than the life you live once you become an adult. It's troubling, mostly because people feel the need to end it there, and it's too early... I try to help my friends... Get through this time... I do try... They say i help, and i think i do sometimes, but when my friends don't want to listen there is nothing i can do. You can only help those who want it or those who need it the most. And, i try to do that. and i try to let the others know they need help. The point is, i like to help people... and, one day, i hope to become an art psycholigist who practices nursing. I can then help the others who feel left behind... I definately know that feeling. - But, i won't forget them. I want everyone to be a part of life. I want everyone to have a good life. And though it may sound impossible. I'll try my best. - I promise. (:

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  • Current Residence: South Australia! n_n
  • Interests: Japan; anime; alice in wonderland; white nail polish! :D
  • Favourite movie: Chicago, Titanic, Monsters Vs Aliens. :P
  • Favourite band or musician: Tokio Hotel. <3
  • Favourite genre of music: I like to change the music i listen to a lot. I need certain music for each mood i am in. (:
  • Favourite poet or writer: Lewis Caroll, Frances Hodgson Burnett. (:
  • Favourite photographer: Ken Duncan
  • Favourite style of art: Line art.
  • MP3 player of choice: Sony Walkman. :D
  • Favourite game: Sims 2. (:
  • Personal Quote: Life doesn't come with an eraser.
  • Tools of the Trade: A led pencil and my phone camera. (:
  • MSN: Cows_Go_M00@hotmail.com

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~sammichpl0x Jul 29, 2009, 6:17:05 AM
RACHAEELL ^___^

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Homophobia's so gay. ;D

Baking powder is really cocaine, that's why cookies are so addictive. :heart:
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~Xx-emiko-chan-xX Jul 31, 2009, 2:56:43 AM
eeeeeeeeee! HAII! ^___^ <3

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The lies are in the mouth not the eyes.
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=kaios Jun 24, 2009, 4:16:33 AM
Of course! Wow, you found me through google! LOL! What were you searching for?

Im jolly good, how are you?

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Eternal life is a prison for the walking Dead.


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~Xx-emiko-chan-xX Jun 25, 2009, 1:40:14 AM
Aha! I searched EGL, and you came up i was all. :O

It was grand. (:

I am alright thank you. :D

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The lies are in the mouth not the eyes.
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=kaios Jun 25, 2009, 1:58:03 AM
Oh dear, I came up :) The Lolita-Admirals won't be pleased baha!
:: does the smug dance ::

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Eternal life is a prison for the walking Dead.


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~Xx-emiko-chan-xX Jun 26, 2009, 4:51:32 AM
Ahahahahaha. *dances with you* Woo! Lets have a party! :D

Oh! And and! Add me on facebook? D:

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The lies are in the mouth not the eyes.
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=kaios Jun 26, 2009, 8:40:10 PM
I did!! I think D:

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Eternal life is a prison for the walking Dead.


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